and since I've been an adult woman all of the adult men that I have known have been worthless they have been abusive game playing lacking of any emotional intelligence whatsoever lacking any integrity morality lacking any true manhood and complete and utter worthless piles of shit they have an abusive to animals to children to women they have not taken care of their property their families the things they own and the only one that was worth a goddamn was the one who did better pretending to be a stand-up man than all the rest of them did but what I could never figure out is if he could pretend to be that man why couldn't he just be that man he obviously knew what to do he just chose not to I will never fucking know if he was really that person the whole time and just chose win to bring out the other side of him or if going to prison and smoking K2 literally rewired his brain and turned him into the monster he became but what I do know is the things I saw after that were so man...