That  thing you always feel us slightly off with any narcissistic personality you know. Even on their best days when things are the happiest of course they are always cheating like crazy, during those times you are distracted and happiness isn't a feeling for them. they always lack harmony. Because they never feel they belong. No matter how much you open  your soul and love them. no matter how much you tell them every day you feel so lucky and are so grateful they love you. they can't feel the same joy and peace they crave immature drama like triangulation it's why they do it all.  To them your belonging and living them deeply is the very reason  they  want to ruin you, hit you, sexually assault you and make you feel like shit. after all they know they are bad people and if you live them you must love bad people so they can't respect you and need to beat you to a pulp because if it . that hypocracy us the only thing they can uphold. they constantly lie and they ...